Sibeh sui n sibeh no luck

Luck ar luck..
where r u har?
who steal u away from me ha?
i dun bliv in luck de...
i oni bliv in self-efforts..
but sumtime i cant deny d truth tat luck can b our determination sumtime...
wth...



PDR5899 i gt no luck wif u...
i always nt sayang u..
so u oso nt sayang me b...
i cause u 2 b scratch...
n u oso revenge by
causin me 2 hv self-emo n eat my money...
aiks so u cannot b my gf...
n mum oso said i no luck wif u..
so i hv 2 break up wif u although i tried my very best 2 b wif u...




so i gonna say 88 2 u..dis post is officially 4 u..
2 thx u at least made me no need 2 walk 4 sum time...
i guess i wont drive u d if no emergency guo..
u stay at home guai guai la..
nw i hv 2 b loyal 2 my PEY5889 oni..
at least i noe it wil always b wif me..
88 PDR5899 T.T..i m nt longer urs n u r nt longer mine oso...





btw
i would like 2 say sorry to
my parents - bloddy scratch ur car (actuali nt mine la..i saja merepek on top )

u - make u worry n spoil d happiness oso..n spoil d last date be4 i go b..wth..

ur mum - thx aunty 4 callin me so late 2 care bout me..i feel ashamed 2 b so careless...
n u press out tat i look so different like last time..mayb time n problems change me?
anyway i promise u 2 b more cheerful ^^

3 gals behind - scared u all n cant manage 2 b u all de ah sei =.=..spoil u all de mood oso..haiz..
make u all oni can play card at home...zzz wth...

bra n all d liquer hunters - sorry cant meet up wif u all n finish tat vodka...wth(again =.=)
i gonna miz tat moment since they all r so noob...
haha..cant drink 1...oni bra n 仙 pro..

grace - wth...i hv been badly influenced by u..wth...promise 2 fetch u but i cant make it at all..
wth...

myself - caused myself 2 b more emo...
miz d moment wif u..wth
miz d chance 2 eat fish..i wanted 2 eat tat fish so much..T.T 七星斑
miz d chance 2 toi liquer..grace summore so giv face 2 come..T.T






haiz..
si beh sui n si beh no luck..
2day dad brought me 2 temple..
i nt 100% bliv it..but it always 2 pray rite...
so hopefully i wil b better soon la..
if nt if i continue emo like tat...
i think i wil get depression disease or 忧郁症...
wth...
i dun wan 2 b like tat...



good thingz 55 come la..T.T
haiz...
zz
z
..

NO CNY 4 ME...

Every year is d same...
there is no cny 4 me...
i m nt excited over it...
bcuz always ntg good 4 me 2 celebrate about it...
mayb i stil consider bad...

no luck...
i always blame luck...
i dun wan depend on luck...
tatsy i put n depend more efforts more than depend on luck..
but y..
tel me y
Y?
Y?
Y?
luck always cause me 2 fail...
spm is like tat..nw oso like tat...
wth wif my luck...
y luck hv 2 b my decider 4 my achievement???

YES
i m despressed...
i m tulan...
i m disappointed...
Y?
u reali wan make me fall???
come la...knn...
i wont scared u de...
i sure will beat u 1 day...
u wait...

after i know it...
i become very upset..
i shout at ppl..
even my family member...
i cry..
even is cny..
i ignore ppl..
n keep my self shut..

sorry
4 ppl who care bout me..
sorry
4 ppl whom i ignore when u ask me m i ok

but i oso wan
thank bro
4 treatin me a bir

n of course
u

i m touched...
knowin u so care bout me..
i m glad...
u remember d song i sang 2 u...
but d most important thing is
u promise u wont ever leave me alone...

no matter d promise is true or not...
u at least
cheer me up

mayb knowin u...
n more understand u durin dis cny..
is at least sumthing
tat i will cheer bout
sumthing
tat would nt make me feel so down..
durin dis cny..
thx...
i wil do anythin back in return 2 u...
^^

dis is an emo post...
so don read if u r happy...
since dis is an emo post..
i wont wan post any pic oso..
emo emo emo emo emo...
but
.
..
...
emo stil hv 2 pass our life oso..
haiz...

Family aspect

it has been a few days that i gt no idea wat shall i post 4 d next post..
no ling gan...zzz
until 2day..i finally gt it d..
2day i wana talk bout family aspect...

family aspect 2 many ppl is a very important aspect in thier life..
as the saying goes " we start and end wif family" rite?
hence we cant live without family rite...
but
.
..
...

2 me
i DO NOT treat family aspect as a very important aspect 2 me..

family aspect
in chinese is called 家庭概念 if i m nt mistaken...
i wanted 2 find these words long time ago
finally a fren told me bout tat...
he n i were havin a dinner at a thai restaurant..
(but surely nt in siam la XD..later ppl mizunderstand us 2 single guys go thai 4...)
tat nite he told me that he oso has less treated family aspect as an important thing in life..
n he is sum1 ta do not agree in marriage..zzz
but I DO..

i surely agree and want 2 get into marriage XD...



after bout 2 hours talking wif him..
i found out tat we hv similarity..
i found out y we both do nt look high on family aspect..
there mz b sumthin behind our stories..
but i shall nt talk much bout them as these r ppl privacies...

sumtime ppl ask me y i seldom go b home..
ya i admit i m a ppl tat seldom go b..
i oni go home durin holiday..
when i oredi hv d chance 2 out there..
i wont always go home..
as goin 2 overseas study is my dream 4 over 17 years..
until 18 i oni managed 2 go out study..
but sad 2 say is oni local..i din hv d chance 2 go overseas..


....T.T..mayb no luck properly..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............
suddenly no mood 2 write...
i think i goin bad dis year oso..
wth wif my luck...
zzz...
88..

Dreamzzz....梦．．．

Dreamzzz...


idiot..zzz...wat theory is tat...


梦．．．




My title 2day..dreamzzz...梦．．．
dreams are something that very special,undefined,undiscovery..
no ppl tat can 100% explain wat is dream,how it come up 2 us...
dreams usaully happen during our bed time...
and dreams usually hv many definations according 2 our dreams...



I am a dream lover..
I love to dream...
and
I frequently dream...
but
I don't build castle in d air...
I oni dream at nitezz...
or can consider as my bed time story...
although i like 2 dream..
I am nt a IDIOT...
zzz....



shall i use english or chinese 2 continue?
i noe my chinese is good (slap myself XD)..
ok..i decide 2 use english(my eng has bcum sucked since i din polish 4 so long T.T..)
since U oni can read english...



Last nite i had a dream..
i dream bout U and me..
in a golden coast
with glimmering sands
cover by flickering sea shells

though
sunlight is penetrating
our every single cell
i feel d warm
from sun papa
n peace
from wind mama

my heart is so relaxed
til i can forget any single
problem
conflict
hurdle
that happen in our daily life



d meanin of my life at tat moment
is jz be wif U
gently hold Ur hands up
we walk along d sands

Ur hand is
so smooth
so soft
as if like holdin clouds
from high of d sky



Ur broaden smile
can light up flickering hopes
of every single disaster victims
as if
angel smile
from d heaven






no voice
oni sound from d environment
accompany 2 of Us
to feel d nature of d earth

from hands to hands
link our heart to heart
every little thing
is no secret to both of Us

being beside U
i m feelin
happy
touched
delighted
tat able me 2 say
i m on top of d world


d scene change
we are riding on an old school mini bike
environment are undiscribeable
time flies along d windy wind tat flowin around us

my unbearale heart
startin 2 shake
bcuz i noe is oredi time
to say goodbye
to my
sweetening dreamz...

---------------------------------------
is a long post i guess..
but who cares..
dis is my blog..
so i hv d right to write wat i want..
n to express wat i feel...

I miz d old time wif U
miz d moment saying i miz U and i lov U
whenever i wan hang up my fon
bcuz i say wat i mean
although
is has oredi been 5 or 6 years ago

and yet
U stil remain very special to me
bcuz after passin through
so many years
i stil dun manage 2 hv d 2nd or 3rd one

U will always remain in my featured frenz in fs
bcuz until nw
U r d oni 1 tat has written be4 in my history of relationship
mayb i m lookin 4 a too high qualifaction 1
or mayb i m nt good in tacklin?
god knows...

2day
happy 2 noe tat U stil kinda of miz me..
after din c me so long..
glad 2 tel u
I DO MIZ U 2 ^^
good9 ppl
dreamz*
xoxo~

After goin CS...zzz

Today i am too bored..so i decided to ask yap aka panda outin wif me 2 CS..zzz

dis is yap dai lou..


he is d followin victim kena in my blog..but dun worry i won write bad thing bout u XD
...panda is always d 1st guy i think of in sp when wanna go hang out 2 waste out my "precious time" ... zzzz

around 3 i fetched him 2 CS...
den we as usual loiterin around..and oso as usual i INVESTED on d bookstore 2 buy my hiyawu 藤井树 and Giddens九把刀 novels...n i hv 2 waste money 2 buy b a book tat i lost my fren 1..haiz..poor T.T...

den after tat we went master choo 4 our tea time..

n these were wat miao pin kai xiao de...

deep fried sweet potatos..these are tasty..can hv a try frez..





this 1 leh..i dun recommend la..zzzz



and on tat moment we oso called chian xin another guy from ibrahim come meet us..

heard he is one of d most handsome guy in form 6 at ibrahim...



nt bad leh...jz lose me abit XD...

i asked yap y he is famous in ibrahim..he said chian xin is good in all kind of sports and noe a lot of thingz..haha..ya he DOTA PRO oso..haha..

den sembang sembang awhile..chian xin busy buyin CNY new cloths den panda n i went 2 put my stuff b 2 my car time...TERSEREMPAK wif dis 2 ladiez....



fishy's mum n her...they were parkin car..

n let we saw each other in car park on tat time..

den i waved hands and continue walked 2 put my stuff...

den b n say hi officially to them...

n her mum thought i was runnin from them...wth..

she stil thought of askin me 2 help her park car as she cant c d b...

zzz...sorry la aunty i din noe tat...if nt i definitely wil help u de ^^...



den i hv a chat wif these mother&daughther..

so surely i oso abandoned panda n chian xin la..haha..

don blame me ha..DOG called me 2...n he oso agree guys should 重色轻友..ya he's reali a DOG

wo wo..wowo wo...


keke...
den after tat panda, chian xin and i went 2 "ji geh" n hv a light meals..
n i oso shun bian buy some drinks 4 my parents..
good son leh me..haha XD..

tats all ^^...

Call it a POPPY night

DEAR READERS, I M BACKKKKKKKKKKK...



sorry 4 no updatin as i was busy wif eexamssss...












10 of Jan...



was my last paper 4 this sem..



so surely hv 2 relax myself rite..wakaka..



therefore calvin decided to jiao us go clubbin..



n our target was



POPPY...







Tat nite kakis were calvin,poison,shoong,yam jim ming,jun(mngz's frez) and me..


hence,was a bachelor party haha..


too bad mr.bra and 仙 din join..


1st 1 gt kang tao(recently he is busy wif so many kang tao..the next 1..biasa la..he said he headache =.=)





at nite after dinner we RUSHED 2 club again...


haiz...chinese memang "gao tu"..haha..


camwhore awhile be4 outin^^



dog was d driver since i intended 2 pui yam jim ming 2 drink..haha..


we finished putra link in 12 min..well..160 - 170km/h from dog's jazz..


haha..





went pavillion fetch yma jim ming and jun..den continue 2 klcc 2 fetch calvin and poison..


den headed 2 our destination..


enter POPPY without much problem


(dunno who always say oni 21 can enter =.=)


sorry la..we noob since 1st time went POPPY ma..haha..



POPPY was very good 2 me indeed XD..

environment nice(creative design ^^ )

ppl good(no ppl fighting at least i dun c 1..hehe..n no ppl jump inside swimmin pool XD)

music best(no more MOS music..pui pui)

n

liquer nt expensive(MOS u don tok our money so much la)



*promotion 4 chivas 12 years..chivas lover can go there..



wat happen inside is a SECRET (accordin 2 yam jim ming)..

after clubbin..tat's d end of story..haha..

but i stil wan sut him..

yam jim ming was DRUNK...XD

he said he was a good drinker..but on tat nite..hehe..

he became second jordan(jz he din vomit la)...

haha..faster laugh at him keke...




this is yam jim ming

to us :

he is a clubber,liquer lover,smoker(he oredi quit accordin 2 him),dog(he is nw officially awarded with dis title XD), and oso one of my greatest exam helper(thx a lot ya..)

to others :

he is a 4 flatter(i m gonna chase u up XD),a bookworm,hard workin guy,well-behaved guy(r u ???XD) and a loyal ppl(sendiri add up 4 u...)


anyway i m glad i noe dis guy..if without him..i not gonna catch up my study..i m not gonna complete my assignment.so thx ya..i wil treat u 2nite as a return XD..

b 2 title..
poppy is a nice place..
jz d dance floor quite small so wat u did ppl wil c it so clearly(dis is wat yam jim ming told me)..
n a bit squeeze since was a sat nite..

btw..tat nite was oso d 1st time calvin went 2 dance floor..
u enjoyed it did u Mr.DevilMayLove?..
haha..

last but not least..u noe,i noe can d rite?
haha..

today is 12 of jan..
so happy b'day 2 myself and my 3 others mmu frenz..
haha..offcially older..20 d..^^

2008年的三个你...

4 dis particular post..i decide 2 use chinese 2 write..

so to those who dunno chinese..u dun hv faith wif it la..XD


2008年的三个你...

这个标题很像刀郎的歌 - 2002年的第一场雪...

今天一整天都在听经典老歌...

林志颖-为什么受伤的总是我

张洪量-你知道我在等你吗

刘德华-男人哭吧不是罪

郭富城-对你爱不完

杜德伟-情人

张学友-吻别

伍佰-泪桥

....

听着听着..就启发我去写这边文章..

开始培养情绪..........

....

..

.

put ur hands up in d air..put ur hands up in d air..


=.= ..培养错情绪...


再来..

培养情绪..

.....

....

...

..

.



这三个你都在2008年让我留些灿烂的回忆，让我毕生难忘，回味无穷..

可是

灿烂的回忆未必是好的回忆...

难忘的回忆未必是好的回忆...

回味的回忆未必是好的回忆...



你1

曾经让我伤的眼泪从横

你1

曾经让我感到无法自拔

你1

曾经让我变得行尸走肉

你1

也

曾经让我感到丝丝快乐

毫无疑问

你1在我心里无底深渊占住了无可埋没的位子

对于你1

我曾经觉得我自己会坚持到底

守了对自己对你1三年的承诺

我

开始觉得累了

开始觉得倦了

开始觉得淡了

开始觉得

是时候放手了

不要再勉强了

该选择放弃了

我的生日

你1让我的心

默默地

偷偷地

静静地

踏出了这一步

而你1也感觉得到我已做出最后的选择


对不起...如果我的出现让你1感到忧愁...

最后，祝福你得到属于你1的幸福快乐...




你2

让我经历了19年来最快的起伏

让我时时对你2又恨又爱

微妙的火花

造成我们拥有属于你2我的

独家记忆

你2

让我觉得马六甲是个寻找幸福的天堂

你2

也

让我觉得马六甲是个寻找悲伤的地狱

五月的sem break

是我你2最好的平衡点

越过的衡量

造就了今天的我们

可是

我从不后悔

也没蛮怨你2

因为

至少我拥有和你2在一起

的48个小时

快乐的回忆漂浮过

Maison,

Setapak,

Sg.Wang

Times Square

Pavillion,

Cyberia A2-11-11,

Cyberjaya Oldtown

LCCT

Pudu 车站

是我48个小时幸福的缘结站

你2的背影

就在那里

永远永远地

离我而去



这也是我第一次在人海茫茫中

留下了让我

刻骨铭心的

眼泪



牵住你2的手的感觉

这一生

这一世

都会徘徊在

我脑海里


对不起...如果我曾经让你难堪失望...

最后，祝福你幸福快乐...






你3

曾经弥补我的寂寞

曾经弥补我的空虚

让我在感情世界里

看到了曙光

可是

这感觉

已经不对

使我

时时

对你3不理不睬

让你3心碎受罪

体贴的感觉

我不能给



他年轻有为

他前途无量

他时时为你着想

他对你3真心付出

他对你3关怀备至

为了你3

他可以花费心思

为了你3

他可以胶尽脑汁

只为博你3一笑

重要日子时

他会想到你3

买东西时

他也会想到你3

他对于你3的真诚

是你3永远在我身上

搜寻不到的宝贝



所以

我选择离开你3

我不配

令你牵念

因为

他才是

你3的

专属郎君



对不起...曾经伤害过你3...

最后，祝福你们有情人终成眷属..不管他是谁..





谢谢三个你



让我在2008年里学习了



这么多人生道理

Last Day of 2008

Today is the last day of 2008..
wat did i do 2 usher the comin 2009?
wif who i celebrate New year?
where did i celebrate it?

MOS? Bar celona?Maison?

or mayb

sunway?sg.wang?merdaka stadium?

Ya..u r correct...

i celebrate in......

..........



.....





....





...







..











.





i celebrate wif them..zzz..

my loyal frenz..my PC,pencil and notes...

I did wish to celebrate it..but..haiz sad 2 say i stayed at home whole day studyin (but i cant reali focus..so learned nt much...T.T..)

NO clubbin..NO outing...NO dating...NO dinner oso..

my dinner was a packet of heaven mee (mee sedap brand)and an egg..

Pity hor T.T sob sob..

You can c d other 2 guys oso..n how they celebrate New Year..
1st one : Mr. Bra



he slept at 8 sumthin at nite..
y he was so tired?
it was bcuz he gt kang tao in the early mornin(the day be4 he oni slept 2 hours) tat took off his whole energy..
y he din celebrate?
due to his watever principle..wth...zzz...


2nd ppl: Mr 仙 aka cole (latest 1) aka monkey(famous 1)


look at him..he like xian rite..
y he is known as xian?
this is bcuz he can live without lunch & dinner (means doesn't eat) jz by playin game,watchin drama series as well as sleepin oso..
y he din celebrate?
god knows?!!..but every noes tat u can take hong kong drama from him XD!he has all!

i myself..

lyin on my notes..lonely ji mo + a bit tulan..
sad leh..haiz..no celebration 4 xmas n new year dis year..
wtf..where d happenin me???
where???????????
.....
..
.

stil remember last year after 2 days i was discharged from hopsital (due 2 food poisonin)

I oredi went 2 cube bar 2 "stand"..haha..

without botherin my exam..

n new year eve oso in cube bar guess..haiz..

dis year..sad..reali SAD...

IN THE YEAR of 2009

can i hv the wonderful moments like tat again?

I miz u all FRENZ(purposely highlight 2 avoid mizunderstanding again XD)

n hope u all do 2 ! ^^

My most treasurable moment wif u all!

cheers!

gud8 2008 n welcum 2009!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

*xoxo..