Life's Journey

5.6.2009
12.18 AM
i think of a lot of thingz recently..
y m i nt born in a rich family?
y m i nt smart enough?
enough stupid 2 say after thinkin bout dis..

ignoring mode make me furious
n i stil hv 2 accept it
i slept oso dreamed
my parents actuali allowed it
even in d dream
i noe i was in a dream

june d..
so fast 1 year d..
1 year ago
different story
different place
different ppl
do you actuali realise
is oredi 1 year?
when i look b d pic we took
durin 1 year
is so sweet n beautiful
all d best pals gather to gather
all d ppl i favour
all d feelings
i like i want
i hv all for sum certain short time
as short as fast as
an aeroplane flies to aus
weird hor y i choose aus?
there mz b reason behind it
oredi 1 year i din b to
MAISON
listen to DJ Goldfish
playin his favourite R&B songs
oohh
memory flashed b ~~~~~~
n returned

after 1 year
rite nw
everything changes
wat i want
wat i like
r all change

i m worried
whether i myself is suitable
or should probably use d word
capable
inferiority complex hits me
i m nt d best anymore
for once i tried my best
to go for overseas
but luck was nt on my side
n i failed

wth is my life?
i jz dun wana depend on my parents
n go for overseas study oso cant?
efforts?
i did show!
study like a dog
mid9 slip 2 hours den wake up continue study
tution everyday non stop
den in d end results slip killed me off
another efforts after results?
ok i show too again!
niama
scholarship form dunno send how many tons
ok got some interviews too
ppl interview parents purposely flied from hometown
n prepare everything for she or he
me?
i asked a malay fren fetch me go a malay school
to get some signature
den ask a taxi to send me go
?
normal hor
..ok summore better efforts
sit bus from sp
take ferri to penang
with a tie hanging on my neck
walkin for uncountable distance
under a hot sun
to search for d destination

in d end
awards mostly given to
those who live in a big bangaloo
or those who can go overseas every year for vacation
or mayb their parents hv connection wif
those ppl in charge
den all wil get it

finally i hv sum little luck
hv 2 satisfied as local scholar
after dis
i promise myself
to give a fight again
after graduate
we wil SEE
who wil lead d world

*no offence to all the overseas scholars

i dunno wat wil happen 2moro
so i crap n complain 1st
if nt i scared i no chance to complain
if u say faith
mayb reali is
if i happen to go overseas
den we wil nt be close back anymore

i dunno faith wil stop nw
or continue
we shall c
life stil goes on
confident comes back PLZ
trust oso !

in d end
i shall consider all as life's journey! (jz treat all as kao peh la)


*dis is a bloody long post..jz ignore it...no offence to any1 i repeat...