helpless

i feel helpless rite nw
but
by
doin homework
make my life stil moves on
sigh
good sign or bad?

so Near yet so Far

my life nw

play pool almost everyday
yet d skills stil sucks
do revision almost everyday
yet results don seem will improve
look at fon almost every 5 min
yet anticipate call or msg hardly come
try to complete my gift
yet stil like jz a piece of ice berg
i tease u immature
yet i m d 1 who look childish





decided to giv it a name Jue Jue
Me:Hello Jue Jue!hope u happy wif V3x ^^

from old time to trust
i stil feel
so Near yet so Far

Mixed Feelingz

first of all
thx God for giving wat i pray for
1st is pass all for my exam
2nd is hv a nice trip in penang n butterworth
n i hv all of it
but
as a human being
i hope for more
i m greedy
when ppl tend 2 b greedy
problems will come...

jz check results in d afternoon
pass all
but din really achieve my target
slightly below my expectation
aiks..
i hv given myself 1 year to try
but stil cant get to push myself up
try lots of ways
hardworkin,lazy,last min,pass year,memorize etc
but stil nt workin..
sigh
luck has been nt stick wif me
for quite some time d
i noe i m nt talented in enginnerin
but at least giv me sumthing more la..
haiz
mayb hope for 2 high
but i m nt oso..
mayb should change feng shui
so we shall c la
dis comin sem
when i move house n stay wif mngz

ok..enough bout bad stuff..
havin sum reali enjoyable moment in penang
(lucky results release after i come b XD)
a reali big THANKS to mngz aka JASON
u hv fetched us around in penang
n waited us patiently during our cam whorin section
haha..
btw thx a lot to for bringin me around butterworth to taste
delicous super sour tom yam mee,soya beans etc...
n last thing provide accomodation 2 me XD!
without u
i wont achieve my
dream
a simple dream
since i secondary sxul

mayb i should think of all
dis happy moment during emo time
n it will definitely help ^^
i m a simple guy
n i hope for simple thingz
tat's me
nite ppl!

NERVOUS

i'm NERVOUS

for certain thingz..

nervous

for comin release of results

plz giv me pass all *.*

dis make me worry d most T.T

i m stil nervous

for comin wed

our rendezvous in pg

wif d hope of my driver

mngz is fully available

for me tat day

until 3am his's duty is

n my very 1st time too

if ntg goes wrong

i goin 2 step in wif u

for d very 1st time

although i been be4 in kl

for many times XD

nvr bring b any of my

"war cloths" aka 战衣(zhan yi)

my "war cloths" izit sumthin like dis XD?

aiks..nervous + worry gao gao

i noe i should let it all happen

naturally

as our d plan is nt goin 2 work 1..

so better b naturally..

but stil worry T.T

hopefully everythin goes fine ya

anyway most important

stil my results..

aiks

i hv 2 admit i like a gal

emo guy n hv mood swing so much

sigh..

good9 ppl!

Life's Journey

5.6.2009
12.18 AM
i think of a lot of thingz recently..
y m i nt born in a rich family?
y m i nt smart enough?
enough stupid 2 say after thinkin bout dis..

ignoring mode make me furious
n i stil hv 2 accept it
i slept oso dreamed
my parents actuali allowed it
even in d dream
i noe i was in a dream

june d..
so fast 1 year d..
1 year ago
different story
different place
different ppl
do you actuali realise
is oredi 1 year?
when i look b d pic we took
durin 1 year
is so sweet n beautiful
all d best pals gather to gather
all d ppl i favour
all d feelings
i like i want
i hv all for sum certain short time
as short as fast as
an aeroplane flies to aus
weird hor y i choose aus?
there mz b reason behind it
oredi 1 year i din b to
MAISON
listen to DJ Goldfish
playin his favourite R&B songs
oohh
memory flashed b ~~~~~~
n returned

after 1 year
rite nw
everything changes
wat i want
wat i like
r all change

i m worried
whether i myself is suitable
or should probably use d word
capable
inferiority complex hits me
i m nt d best anymore
for once i tried my best
to go for overseas
but luck was nt on my side
n i failed

wth is my life?
i jz dun wana depend on my parents
n go for overseas study oso cant?
efforts?
i did show!
study like a dog
mid9 slip 2 hours den wake up continue study
tution everyday non stop
den in d end results slip killed me off
another efforts after results?
ok i show too again!
niama
scholarship form dunno send how many tons
ok got some interviews too
ppl interview parents purposely flied from hometown
n prepare everything for she or he
me?
i asked a malay fren fetch me go a malay school
to get some signature
den ask a taxi to send me go
?
normal hor
..ok summore better efforts
sit bus from sp
take ferri to penang
with a tie hanging on my neck
walkin for uncountable distance
under a hot sun
to search for d destination

in d end
awards mostly given to
those who live in a big bangaloo
or those who can go overseas every year for vacation
or mayb their parents hv connection wif
those ppl in charge
den all wil get it

finally i hv sum little luck
hv 2 satisfied as local scholar
after dis
i promise myself
to give a fight again
after graduate
we wil SEE
who wil lead d world

*no offence to all the overseas scholars

i dunno wat wil happen 2moro
so i crap n complain 1st
if nt i scared i no chance to complain
if u say faith
mayb reali is
if i happen to go overseas
den we wil nt be close back anymore

i dunno faith wil stop nw
or continue
we shall c
life stil goes on
confident comes back PLZ
trust oso !

in d end
i shall consider all as life's journey! (jz treat all as kao peh la)


*dis is a bloody long post..jz ignore it...no offence to any1 i repeat...

b in sp...

b 2 sp last9...
slept whole days..
anyway dis is wat i gonna do in sp oso..
SLEEP 99!


sum quick updates after my final exam..
went for 2 movies wif diffrent frez..
terminator - i found it fine for me although many ppl say is nt nice..
i corrupt all cops - wang jing's film..so guess it urself..watch for fun..

after watchin dis 2 movies..
i gt 1 conclusion..
tat is there r some ppl who go kl watch movie
r damn BLOODY n UNCIVILIZED !!!


here the 2 real cases happen n my frens n i witnessed..

CASE 1:
two indians were talkin loudly in a cinema
den 1 lala said "shewws" to them..
den one of the indians reply
"shewws wat?wat d fuck u shewwin?y u bother bout me talkin?
u wana fight izit?come go outside 1 by 1!"
this lala intended to fight d but his fren stopped him
n even say sorry to the 2 indians...
*no wonder no ppl r givin warnin in malaysia
to others bcuz if u warn ppl den u wil b involved in fighting..sigh"

CASE 2:
watchin movie til half way..
in front couples turned their heads n watched me..
den after 5 min the guy from d couple stood up n walked towards me
n say in cantonese "y u kick me?" n intended 2 giv a fight to me..
i wif my eyes open watchin him den his gf asked him b 2 seat..
hello uncle i came here 2 watch movie nt to kick u la..
i m nt so free 2 kick u oso..
*dis is how kl ppl watchin movie in cinema..those who so wana fight
plz go find gangster or mat rempit to fight la..don come n cause trouble
in cinema n affect ppl's mood..BRAINLESS BASTARD!

sigh..malaysian r becomin like tat d..
is there any hope for 2020?god knows...

btw
i created a new record for myself too..
last time when i went MOS
i drunk n i slept on d road..
dis time special a bit..
i drunk n i got myself to slip in d toilet for 1 hour..
(i climbed up d toilet stand where u can put ur things
n i eventually slip there hehe)
yeah baby..
while others r enjoyin themselves in d dance floor..
lazy shoong n his fren managed to hunt
n bcum ppl's 'handburger'

co aka xian oso has his time wif....XD doin...XD
i m d goodboy for d night!tat is wat i promised to myself!
n i hv DONE it...
haha..


wireless coneection is so sucks 29..
keep on dcing..
so i decide to call it a day..
good9 ppl!
xoxo!